oh well.

a lovely
festering
insanely
demanding
upsetting
wonderful
and yet
depressing
feeling
built
up
inside
deep 
down
where it
lingers
and
bothers you
for 
what
seems 
to be
an
e t e r n i t y
can't 
focus
can't 
sleep
can't do
a single
thing
right
yet
somehow
perfectly
content
with 
the world
crashing
to 
pieces
this 
feeling
is 
much
better
than 
reality.